When you have me beside you

I haven't really wondered,

How is it like to be when there was us under a beautiful night sky?

Where wind blows pass by,

Placed at a romantic beach,

Gentle breeze wherever we reach,

My head on your shoulder,

In a way you wouldn't shudder,

Thinking of you'll be mine,

Not to mention it's just so fine,

To be around with you for the night,

Everything just feels so right,

Under this charm of moonlight,

To have your arms around me so tight,

Feeling each other without talking,

The way people wouldn't understand of how we are communicating,

To tell that you're my baby,

My one and only,

For I'm your honey,

I'm the one you need,

When you know you're weak,

You're the one I love,

The one I feel;

Doing all the things in the world with you,

Is what I always hoped to do,

So baby when I say I love you,

What I mean is so true,

Keep in mind that everything's with you,

When you have me beside you

I have never hated you

I always and always thought I have this special friend...
and I adore her and so...
but then she betrayed me...
then I found YOU...
I adored you more than how I adored this special friend....

Your every writing, or anything on the blog... there's nothing that I have not read...
You never believed that I ever read anything or whatever...
I'm alright.. I kept quiet... and to be honest.. very honest... you're the only person whom I poured my heart and soul to before...
Not even my boyfriend or ex or blabla..
I never believed anyone..
I believed you.

I thought I could motivate you,
I think I'm really too naive to think that I could,
Not that you are bad... it's just that my words are always pointless,
Who am I to advise at times when I have been through those issues and never able to solve it?
I can only listen quietly, hoping that you'll feel better, but you thought I didn't care..
I knew it since day one when I thought I was close to you,
I even read every of your fangirl posts, though I'm not sure what is what since I don't indulge in your show.

I understand you because I want to understand you better,
I never ever hated you, just very angry, not now.. only a little while after we argued, but really am very upset....
From now onwards I swear that the one and only friend I'll have is Joe, because even if I wanted to be your friend, I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

Friendship That Wound Your Heart

When one's near, shall the other accept?
Shall one decline, when one's further?
The distance in reality,
Is it that far apart?

When you conceive, who shall believe?
Who shall conceive, when you believe?
Realities in your eyes,
Are those what you lift yourself upon?

Fragile mind, broken heart,

Everything that had torn apart,

For all i comprehend,
Is nothing you understand.

You live up what you believe,
You strive for what you conceive,
Does friendship ever matters?
Or have you never known one friendship that matters?

Friendship is what i hold onto,
For you only i thought it to,
All's on the ground are all wasted,
For you never care to lift them up.

Just rubbish that they became,
Hearts and care you put to shame,
i swear in god's name,
i love the sight when you came.

So what if i care for what i care,
So what if i am doubted for what i doubt,
You're still my friend, you still are,
Though it hurts me but it doesn't.

i thank god for your presence, yes i do,
For you i shall pray, yes i shall,
You'll be better, yes you will,
Without me, like your will.

May god release this poor child,
For the pain that she held,
Cleanse her sins for what she did,
Place it on me, the farewell i'll bid.

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My "H1N1" Experience.

Alright, so here I am, telling you guys my experience from "H1N1".. As many of you know.. I've been sick for quite some time, till today. Actually, it had already been 11 days. Fever, sore throat, flu, cough, body ache, suffocation, seizures, dizziness, giddiness and puking were among all that I've experienced throughout these "battle" days. Seriously, it was not easy for me to do anything with all those striking to me at once. Of course, I didn't die -_- DUHHHHH. It all started with my flu. Yeap, and then very bad sore throat accompanied by a bout of coughing and led to body ache, seizures and etc. etc. I went to see doctor 3 times at the first week.
The first time that I went for consultation was 4 days after I fell onto sickbed (note : not DEATHBED). It was a Tuesday. Doctor calmly examined me and checked my thoroughly and his advice was, stay at home, sleep, drink more water, take your medicine punctually and what more a doctor can say. Go figure out for yourself. Odd huh? Such normal advice. Anyway, he told me that if I didn't recover on Tuesday, the 6th day, I should go back for blood test, maybe I've been striked by dengue? Who knows anyway? My mum thought I had H1N1 instead -_-..Paranoid I know.
Very very unfortunately, my fever didn't manage to subside by Thursday and I have to go back to Mr. Doc. Doc didn't had be for blood test, he said he didn't own a lab to search my result out for me but he kindly wrote a recommendation letter for me to head towards UM at A&E Department (Emergency) for H1N1 alert. As mentioned, he was worried it's H1N1 instead. Despite that fact, he did define to me that even if I happen to HAVE H1N1 OMGWTHBBQ, it's just some mild H1N1 viral infection, it will just take a week or two to completely shrug them off. Yeah right, sounds safe? Little did I know that H1N1 patients didn't die because of H1N1, they died during the process, the complications they had to face were the main reason for their coffin stay. My deepest condolences to all who died due to H1N1. Uh, did I get my sentence right? Sorry, my bad, my English level had somehow paused at somewhere around the Kindergarten book. :(.
So, back to my part of the story. I didn't go to the hospital that day. I took medicine from Doc and then went home to sleep first. I couldn't fall into wonderland properly due to bad cough. Hectic, you know? :(. So, I went to rest for the whole day.. Oops I forgot to say I infected Swen during the process, he's sick because of me!!!! T.T sorry Hunnie, my bad.. MY BAD T.T.. On Friday 9.30 a.m., I set off to UM and reached the emergency department. There was quite a for some to go in. =/... In front of me was a Malay dude. He had the same recommendation letter as I do and totally same condition, he went into the Emergency wards to immediate check ups. Reminder : He was only having fever for 3 days. No cough no sore throats no aches. Why emergency? Well it was my turn to hand the letter to the officer, GUESS WHAT? Please pay attention to what I have to say for the next few lines.

THE OFFICER FREAKINGLY TOLD ME TO GO OVER TO THE "KLINIK PESAKIT LUAR" BECAUSE IT'S JUST NORMAL FEVER WHEN I HAD FEVER FOR LIKE 7 DAYS, REALLY VERY BAD COUGH AND STUFF!!! HOW UNFAIR IS THAT? AGAIN? STUPID MALAY OFFICER!!

Right, so, I have to go to the "KLINIK PESAKIT LUAR" just because of the UNFAIR OFFICER. Goshies, where are the human rights yo? He should be the one there and I should be the one IN THE EMERGENCY WARD FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE! Well, yeah since I had to go there I had to actually wait for 1 hour plus nearing 2 hours just for REGISTRATION ONLY. They were really REALLY slow! What do they think they're doing? Right, so it was 11.45 a.m. and I'm still freakingly waiting... till 12.55p.m. YAY MY TURN! -_-. I had blood test and @#%$^ I have to wait till 2p.m. for the results because the lab assistants went for lunch. Great.
I was examined again and again didn't wanna tell the freaking process because it was "omg so lame" and "OMG ITS JUST A MEDICAL STUDENT THAT I'M CONSULTING WTH?". Let's skip that part to where the results were, I'm fine and I only had bad viral infections. Take quite some time for my fever to go and for my body to regain at its fullest state. Anyway, that was my "H1N1" experience. I didn't get H1N1, was so close, THANK GOD I DIDN'T. I LOVE YOU GOD, MUAHHHHHHHHH :D.

P.S. Never ever go UM for any normal CONSULTATION. Head over to UMMC, the new UM (private hospital) for specialist consultation, it is really quite a bomb but the doctors there already have their Masters and stuff, most of them are professors and they are from out of the country. So I assure you that they are certainly qualified good and dedicated doctors. DO NOT GO UM!

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